broke some expensive stuff.

damnnn.bila aku tgk harga benda ni kat internet aku chuak.takut aku kene ganti balik.
camni citer bermula,untuk siapkan f.y.p( final year project ) aku telah collaborate dengan universtit malaysia pahang. dorang ade equipment yang aku nak pakai.

atas sebab uni aku tada,terpaksa la pinjam.aku dah siapkan sampling untuk 3 tempat.yadaydaya.

satu malam ni aku nak bersihkan dan calibrate salah satu equipment yang aku pinjam.suddenly krang!!!! mentol kecik 10.6eV high performance UV lamp pecah.aku chuak aku tepon terus supervisor aku. dia dah la nak kawin ahad depan.damnnn.ganggu dia lak.

aku gi tau.kak,rosak la kak.bulb dia pecah. dia pon cakap awak gi je ump dulu tgk ade ganti tak. lepas tu ajak aku gi wedding dia.

aku tak gi lagi ump takut lak nak cakap ape2 kat brother yang jaga lab tuh.damnnn.aku tak sengaja pecahkan.aku search la kat internet bape harga dia.
last2 aku jumpa kat sini.http://74.52.105.197/sales/photovac/2020proparts.html.

mahalnye!!!!

362.25 US DOLAR!

ahahahhaha.aku tak tau nak sedih atau gelak.memang tak mampu ganti ni.

jadi aku tenangkan diri je.relax.
ape2 pon mesti siapkan f.y.p aku.

f.y.p = final year problem.
sabor je la ni last semester aku kat sini.

doing some hospital time.

last sabtu ahad,aku dok hospital untuk 3 hari dua malam.
what an eye opening experience.bosan sgt dok situ.
all i could do is rest.tgk tv,makan ,tido.thats it.
best part when my brother and sister datang melawat.
sampai sekarang batok aku tak elok.
this is officially period of time yang aku jatuh sakit paling lama.
batok hampir sebulan,kene denggi.
on top of all final year project aku tergendala.
aku nak start secepat mungkin.
habis semua data collection sebelum sem baru.
sakit mengajar aku sesuatu.
sesuatu yang aku tak mungkin dapat kalau aku sihat. tak mungkin dapat.

cough

i dont remember the last time i have cough this long.
i dont value my health when i was healthy and strong and I could do anything.
i dont know why the medication doesnt work.its almost 10 days already.
i dont know when my cough will be cured.
only time will tell.

singing help me to fight the cough.hhahahahh.

the value

it is the value of hardship.

even though there's difficult time and though of giving up sometimes appeared

but what matter most is the appreciation,recognition of your pain,sweat and tear.

it does make me feel better.

value.....


perhaps the value comes later.

who knows.

i am still patiently waiting.

help yourself

you will never prosper even if your inheritance money pile up like mountain if you are:
1. lazy
2. not independent
3. always think you know better than others
4. never consider other feeling or condition
5. mocking other people hardship
6. disloyal
7. never trust anyone
8. never accept your wrong.

weak men never is harder to accept their wrong doing,
because they're weak nature and fear they wont come on top again.
mistake are made to make men think and change for betterment.

comes a time when....

u must put yourself first before others,
even family,because later on you hope with some sacrifice you can
safe vouch all their compensation and need.
for everything i hope,here i go.

what does make a home?

actually what is home?
does a house make a home?
but one thing for sure,i dont want to be alone.
Does the house your family living make your house a home?
does your friend make your current house a home?
is it just a place for you to rest your head?

is there any significant to what im questioning?
for me,yes..

and i know someone out there feel the same too.

i felt nothing if i cant share anything with anybody.
this is a temporary accommodation until i build my own.

bubbles

guy A: they seem to love bubbles.
guy B: Oh, god they go ape shit over bubbles.
guy A: they're really going ape shit.
guy B: I mean,that's an incredible things about a child.
i mean what so great about bubbles?
guy A: they float,you can pop them. I mean, i get it,i get it.
guy B: i wished i like anything as much as my kids love bubbles.
guy A: That's sad.
guy B: it's totally sad.their smiling faces point out your
inability to enjoy anything.
guy A: am i gonna be okay,man?
guy B: Oh, who knows? is anybody okay?I'm not okay.
you're asking the wrong guy.
just don't ask me to lend you any money,you know?
guy a: can i just have some?
guy B: no...

how to deal with stubborn sister?

tonight i have a terrible headache,
stressing because of something that i cant fully help,
only partially,
tell me,
how to show them that we care,
our advice is for the benefit of your future,
and my sister, you're following the wrong path,
and as a brother, i don't want you to suffer the consequences.
because i care. i don't want you to do the same mistake that they've made,
oh my sister,can you tell me you still care.
because i do.and i cant stop doing it until the day i die.

evening sky

today i look at the sky and ask god while driving my scooter in my village,
am i going to accomplish what i dream?,
can i do it?,
somehow the sky this evening give me a calm feeling.
and i wish the answer is yes.

bersyukur

i think somehow the universe conspire and whispered delicately to my ear to be more grateful and appreciative of what i have and reminding me what i can be.
I'm thankful for every breath i take, every knowledge that i carry, any love that i share, jokes that we share.
syukur...
ALLAH is GREAT!

reminding myself

i don't know what or how some people think,
that there are consequence for your action,
you cannot run from facing your mistake,
and still i learn,
im patiently waiting for my time to make my own mark,
avoiding repeated action,
losing unnecessary lost,
and i beg of god to guide me to the right way.

sarapan pagi

situasi dalam petronas seksyen 16 nak beli roti.

"hmmm, roti sardin atau roti tuna......"

baik amek roti tuna,aku tengok kat nat geo dorang dah nak pupus

peranan guru

guru aku hargai jasa mu.
kau ajar aku membaca,
kau ajar aku sembahyang,
kau ajar aku memahami,
kau ajar aku mengaji.

tapi harini aku dengar cerita dari adik aku sendiri,
betapa tak kompetennya sesetengah guru untuk mengajar.
adakah guru sekadar sebuah profesion,
tanpa dedikasi?penuh birokrasi?
sedih tapi benar,
tapi aku mahu kawan2 diluar sana yang bakal mengajar ambil jadi iktibar.

apabila seorang pelajar bertanya pada guru kenapa,bagaimana untuk menjawab soalan disekolah.
dan apabila guru sendiri, buat tak tau atau senyapkan diri.
umpama bertanya itu salah dalam budaya sekolah,
apa aku akan fikir?,
adik aku mengadu,
bila dia tanya cikgu,cikgu buat tak tahu,
bila kita komplen,guru marah.cakap dah lakukan tugas dengan baik,
aku sebagai pelajar amat sedih dan berasa malu sekiranya guru itu tidak menjalankan tugas dengan penuh amanah,
tugas kau jadi guru untuk mengajar,
apa salahnya kau bantu anak bangsa,
soalan kecik sahaja,
kenapa,macam mana,
kenapa guru boleh jadi sebegitu rupa?
bukan ker kita semua dewasa,
faham tanggung jawab tugas.
amanah yang diberi,
kesian budak2.
aku harap kepada yang diluar sana yang bakal menjadi guru,
dapat menerima pelajar seadanya,
jalankan tanggungjawab anda dengan sempurna,
guru bukan sekadar profesion,
guru juga adalah pemangkin bangsa.
kalau korang rasa bila korang mengajar nanti,
korang akan layan pelajar dengan lain2 standard,
aku syorkan profesion lain.
guru kene jaga integriti.
janganla malukan diri,
bila dah kene komplen baru melenting,
hormatlah pelajar tu.

akhir kata aku.
guru,kau la idealist yang membina anak bangsa.
aku doa.
guru akan jadi guru yang baik semula.
aku tuju kepada semua guru di luar semua.
ambil lah yang baik dari apa yang saya sampaikan,
ape yang saya silap,itu kelemahan saya.

my first post

dengan mengepos blog pertama ini.aku dah contradict dengan ape aku cakap sebelum ni.
but then, ive change my mind sometime.

just got back from u.m.
pergh ekspo diorang jauh beza dengan uia kuantan.
ade alat2 muzik complete.ade grand piano lagi.
performance dari cultural club dari u.m.mantap!

i run out of idea already.
how can u guys type endlessly?