whole my life.

Money is a necessary evil,
sometimes putting it out of our life equation is what should we do,
all my life Ive heard struggle,
its time to end this vicious cycle and come on top of it.

live life to the fullest,
instead of worrying of finance,
focuses more on human aspect of it.

Which i might say is lacking....
even-though its lacking I'm trying the best i can do
to be a step ahead.

InsyaAllah, ill be great help to others.

aku stress

To who ever read my blog,
please read it with the understanding of my perspective,
try to see my story from the eyes of second eldest brother.

I hate it when my other siblings rude to my mother.
They always been, I wouldn't say that I'm nice all the time but then again.
There are always something that I knew not to do.

I envy other family that their children totally listen to their parents,
my family was not built that way,
instead of listening, we grow up as rebel but only against our family
but not our friends.

I guess, my mother is stronger than me.
I just wish my other siblings could see what they've done for us.
I'm sad because where the respect towards own family?
I hate to see my mother like this.
but then again, Ive lost any control of my siblings.
they have the mind of their own.

I guess life challenging our family this way.
I love my mother.
for all I care, if anyone dont respect her and treat her as she deserved.
They are not important to me.

I hope anyone that read this realize without your parents you wont be there,
reading my blogs and living your life as it is.
Love your parent,respect them,make them your priority.

with all my heart and soul,
Broken heart brother.

lama gak aku tak post pape kat sini

mungkin aku busy buat final year project atau budak universiti lain panggil projek sarjana muda?
aku kadang2 tak sedar dengan peluang yang ada.memang kelemahan aku sifat manusia.
peluang tak dapat pada semua.aku bersyukur.sesetengah jalan terbuka untuk aku.jalan yang kadang2 orang lain tersangat mahu dan dah cube sedaya upaya untuk dapat. mungkin aku kene susun balik kepentingan dalam hidup aku.
that life,full of guessing game.sometimes the truth slaps you so hard before you realize what lies before you.
aku bersyukur

broke some expensive stuff.

damnnn.bila aku tgk harga benda ni kat internet aku chuak.takut aku kene ganti balik.
camni citer bermula,untuk siapkan f.y.p( final year project ) aku telah collaborate dengan universtit malaysia pahang. dorang ade equipment yang aku nak pakai.

atas sebab uni aku tada,terpaksa la pinjam.aku dah siapkan sampling untuk 3 tempat.yadaydaya.

satu malam ni aku nak bersihkan dan calibrate salah satu equipment yang aku pinjam.suddenly krang!!!! mentol kecik 10.6eV high performance UV lamp pecah.aku chuak aku tepon terus supervisor aku. dia dah la nak kawin ahad depan.damnnn.ganggu dia lak.

aku gi tau.kak,rosak la kak.bulb dia pecah. dia pon cakap awak gi je ump dulu tgk ade ganti tak. lepas tu ajak aku gi wedding dia.

aku tak gi lagi ump takut lak nak cakap ape2 kat brother yang jaga lab tuh.damnnn.aku tak sengaja pecahkan.aku search la kat internet bape harga dia.
last2 aku jumpa kat sini.http://74.52.105.197/sales/photovac/2020proparts.html.

mahalnye!!!!

362.25 US DOLAR!

ahahahhaha.aku tak tau nak sedih atau gelak.memang tak mampu ganti ni.

jadi aku tenangkan diri je.relax.
ape2 pon mesti siapkan f.y.p aku.

f.y.p = final year problem.
sabor je la ni last semester aku kat sini.

doing some hospital time.

last sabtu ahad,aku dok hospital untuk 3 hari dua malam.
what an eye opening experience.bosan sgt dok situ.
all i could do is rest.tgk tv,makan ,tido.thats it.
best part when my brother and sister datang melawat.
sampai sekarang batok aku tak elok.
this is officially period of time yang aku jatuh sakit paling lama.
batok hampir sebulan,kene denggi.
on top of all final year project aku tergendala.
aku nak start secepat mungkin.
habis semua data collection sebelum sem baru.
sakit mengajar aku sesuatu.
sesuatu yang aku tak mungkin dapat kalau aku sihat. tak mungkin dapat.

cough

i dont remember the last time i have cough this long.
i dont value my health when i was healthy and strong and I could do anything.
i dont know why the medication doesnt work.its almost 10 days already.
i dont know when my cough will be cured.
only time will tell.

singing help me to fight the cough.hhahahahh.

the value

it is the value of hardship.

even though there's difficult time and though of giving up sometimes appeared

but what matter most is the appreciation,recognition of your pain,sweat and tear.

it does make me feel better.

value.....


perhaps the value comes later.

who knows.

i am still patiently waiting.